So, Thursday?

Nothing interesting to report today. I am quite tired from worrying, the boyfriend is sick and last night I told him to come over so I could take care of him. Now I'm worried that I might catch it, but it doesn't worry me as much as not being able to be the hovering, maternal instincts on high girlfriend all day long.
There's some things happening in the economical sense of the word, and I worry that I might not be able to go through with my plans of going to NYC in October. It's too soon to tell as of yet, but it's worrying nonetheless.
My mind is all over the place today, as it is every day. Strattera keeps me focused, but only slightly, and my mind is able and unrestrained to travel everywhere she wants to. Sometimes I even get so distracted by my own nailpolish, moving my fingers around, looking at how the light dances off the sparkles on it... Yeah. My life is sometimes boring, I'd say. But I don't think I want it to be more interesting just yet.
In other snippets of my life, and for those of you who don't already know this (lol) I divide my time on the Nintendo DS mainly between Final Fantasy III and Ninja Town. This week it's been the latter, those cute, pudgy little ninjas and all their bright colors sure bring a big smile to my face every time I see them. And what would any dilligent Ninja Town fan do? Well, visit , DUH! I ordered two Ninja Town Micro Plushes. Don't even know when they'll arrive or where I'll keep them, but they shall be my pets, Amen.





The braces are still killing me. No picture today because frankly, my hair doesn't look so good and I am in dire need of undereye concealer. If you have just started reading, well, hello! and don't worry. Content will get deeper as time progresses. I'm trying to break the writing rut that I have been in for a very, very long time.
bye!

Tooth Drama

Yesterday I didn't write because I spent half the day at my orthodontist's office. I spent Monday night at the boy's (who lives conveniently close to where the Dr. is) and woke up a little bit earlier than I would've liked to be there on time. And so I was, only I had to wait for what seemed like an eternity (I think it was a bit more than 2hours) in a freezing office. Thank God I had my Nintendo DS with me, and in the meantime got busy passing level after level of NinjaTown. Once I was finally called in, I spent like 2 more hours on the chair, no joke!!! The dentist assistants proceeded to replace a loose bracket, clean my teeth, and put the brackets and wire on the bottom teeth. In the meantime they spent so long doing this I thought I might as well fall asleep there!
When I looked out the window I noticed it was dark and really really cloudy, my car was parked a few buildings down (that's Piñero Ave. for you) and I had worn my Keen purple sandals because, sure, why not? So after it was all done since I had to return to the office I ventured out into the street to walk to my car. I arrived soaking wet, everything from my feet, my shoes, my shirt, my hair, everything! I immediately turned on the heater in my car.
after the flood (lol) I grabbed some lunch and had totally forgotten about the new line of braces, so it was a lot harder and more painful than I thought to eat it, but I finally finished about an hour later. apparently TAco Bell is not a good idea when your teeth are caged in metal. I found this out the hard way...
The rest of the afternoon was quite the uneventful ordeal except for the tightening in my jaw that was every moment harder to deal with. At five I finally got off, and after eating two yogurt cups, took two advil and an ambien and finally was able to rest a bit.
This morning I managed to take a picture of me smiling, feeling a little bit better (in part because I got to try some of my new Aromaleigh En Pointe samples, Sylp and Serenade eyeshadows)

no one can pretend to be painlessly happy as well as I can :)
bye!

Regresando.

Hace mas de un año que no escribo. En parte por falta de inspiración, en parte por vagancia, en parte por no querer publicar todas las complicaciones corrientes de mi vida. Dije que iba a escribir en papel y lápiz, pero eso no ayuda la vagancia. Es dificil mantenerme cuerda bajo todas las situaciones internas y externas, familiares, laborales, románticas y de amistades. ES una pelea constante, dia a dia. Tengo fe de que algun dia todo caerá bajo su propio peso y poco a poco se iran resolviendo todos los desastres.
Y espero poder escribir mas a menudo, como siempre digo.
ciao!

Y el por que de para que?

Es ninguno. Escribiendo por escribir. Me acuerdo, cuando era chiquita, mi diario consistia en escribir todo lo que habia hecho en el dia.

"Querido Diario:

Me levante a las 7 a.m, me di un baño con agua fria y me vesti para ir a trabajar. Me pinte los ojos con amarillo y naranja, porque asi tenia ganas de hacerlo. Una camisa negra porque no tengo nada amarillo...
Sin tiempo para desayunar, me pongo los zapatos y cambio la cartera y me monto en el carro. Ahi me doy cuenta que deje el celular encima de mi cama, despues de mucho pensar y considerar decidi volver a entrar a buscarlo.
Llego a la oficina a las 8:45, mi dia comienza. El desayuno llega un poco tarde pero estaba bueno. La muchacha se quedo con mi cambio, ahora no tengo cash.
Recibo mi correo electronico, y sorpresa! Mas altercados con la persona que me quita las ganas de ir a trabajar. Despues de esperar una hora en el telefono con PRTC entre llantos y decirme a mi misma que me tranquilizara, logre cancelar el DMAX de la finca. Ya estoy frustrada y me quiero ir de ahi. Busco los clasificados, las ofertas de empleo se ven un poco plastas. Necesito NO trabajar con familia.
A las 12 en punto salgo de ahi, ni un minuto mas, me dije. Me acorde de que queria probar uno de esos dichosos polvos minerales a ver cual es la mierda, asi que fui a Walgreens a buscarlo. Queria Ferrero Rocher tambien, asi que los compre. Sigo histerica y sin poder creer lo horrible que me siento con ese equipo de trabajo.
Vine a casa y no tenia ganas de cocinar.

Y todavia, 3 horas despues, tengo hambre."


Un poco aburrido, pero fijate... Podria funcionar. ahora... por que yo quiero recordar toda esa sarta de estupideces en la cual consiste mi vida?

Yisus Craist.
this sucks.

seguimiento

Bueno. He organizado la mayor parte de mi cuarto por hoy.
No he creado nada en mucho tiempo, en parte por la invasion de mi espacio creativo por un supuesto equipo de limpieza que han puesto todo donde no lo puedo encontrar. Ya casi tengo todo listo para mi viajecito a Rincon manana, debe ser divertido, no se. El trabajo me va bien, me gusta, cada dia me siento mas como un hongo que va creciendo poco a poco en ese escritorio, una persona de rutina. Y hasta cierto punto, me gusta.
No tener una completa incertidumbre de donde voy a estar y que voy a hacer me da un sentido de tranquilidad.
Me gustaria conseguirme un apartamento alquilado para mi sola, posiblemente en los proximos 6-12 meses.

He vuelto a desempolvar tus cartas. . .


y cecilia me disfraza y me hace photoshoots =c)

Y no escucho musica nueva porque no me interesa al momento. Siendo tan descarrilada soy bastante de rutina. Mi escritorio es un desastre y escribo sobre mi falda porque el teclado no cabe en el. yy... escribir por escribir a veces no sale tan bien como otras.

return

My last post was some time ago (don't know when exactly) but i can never seem to be too consistent with these things. However...I DO have to write about my trip to NYC which I'll have to do ...
some other day.

i'm tired :-(

Memory

Some people say they can relive instants by remembering them, the vividness of their first kiss or the sound of the rain outside the window....

I'm not one of them. I live on autopilot, wishing I could sit back, close my eyes, and be there again. Wherever that might be.

short entry today... I'm going through a confusing moment in my life.